Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Before i start on my nagging, i would like to mention a few points. I wont blog unless it means something significant to me, meaning this shows that the person in story is significant to me. Also, the person i mention did no wrong on his/her part. It just due to my own different way of seeing things that i felt pissed.
I walking wif a good pal to a certain place today. On the way there, my friend did a certain act which i personally is very against. The act he/she did is nt illegal, do not much damage to me, but its just out of my own reasons i hate it. Well i made a request for him/her nt to do that act while i'm accompanying him/her. However he/she replied,:" i've no obilgation to stop that". i figured that its true that he was right by saying that so i could say nt abt it. However, its a cancer's characteristic to feel hurt unneccessarily so i had somehow think more abt it. Its nt wrong for my friend to have a mind of his own and do things regardless of opinion of others. i am just sad to know that friends had so low influence over him/her. Maybe it may be just for me not for others,(although friend said he/she also treats other ppl the same) i feel kinda of disappointed to know how little i meant to others.
As I've said, its nt my friend's fault he/she do things in his/her way but as a cancer i cant help but think more and unneccessarily. Since its not his fault i think its nt good if i just tell him/her how i felt. Even if i did, it may be of no concern to him/her. The reason why i wrote this post is becoz i hope he/she knows i feel but yet i dun wish to confront him/her. thats all. I think too much.Actually thats more to what i've typed so far but i think i'm nt one person who knows how to communicate fully on how i felt. hope one day i'll find someone who knows me more than i know myself to help me communicate. ^^ sweet dream everyone
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